“While Jesus was in Bethany in the home of Simon the Leper, a woman came to him with an alabaster jar of very expensive perfume, which she poured on his head as he was reclining at the table.”
Jesus, my love, my savior, my brother, my Lord, thank you for Mary and her alabaster jar of perfume: this precious gift from her to you, that no one understood. It made people jealous and angry and irritated. But you honored her and her gift. Her love poured out on you, just as you would pour your love out on us. She gave you the most expensive, most beautiful thing she had and she offered it to you, and anointed you, and walked with you to the cross and to your death with her gift of perfume. She acted out real devotion to you and you acknowledged her. Love like that it what you long for from everyone. Deep, sacrificial love, like the love you have for us. A love that gives us everything. We don’t deserve it, but you do!
My sweet love, show me how to give you my everything, as you showed us all on the cross. Show me what true devotion and love and honor look like fresh every day. Fresh every moment. May my heart be filled with the deep, enduring, eternal love that would take you down the road of deep suffering and anguish just to save me. Just to be my champion. My warrior. My King.
I don’t want honor, Lord. I want you to be honored. I want to love you in a way that no one else even understands. To love you so perfectly and so boldly as to surrender all my rights and all my worth to you for you to be lifted up. For you to be proclaimed as King once more. I want the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart to be pleasing to you, oh Lord, my Rock, and my Redeemer. I want the world to know that you are God and I am not.
You have called out to me and I have answered you. You saved me. You hold me. You honor me with your death and resurrection. You gave it all for me, my love. You gave it all for me and I want to give you all of me in return. Help me to not hold anything back. Help me not to seek any of my own glory. Help me to only seek you. Amen.