Do you ever feel like God is trying to tell you something and you think you’re hearing Him only to discover that He’s still talking and you don’t get it? I realized last night that I wrote two consecutive blog posts about basically the same thing. Using a lot of the same verses, I wrote about the joy that comes after the suffering. Even the titles were similar.
I didn’t notice until last night.
I wasn’t listening as clearly as I thought. Don’t get me wrong, I want to listen and I was listening. I desperately want to hear God’s voice. How am I supposed to function properly without the Lord’s direction and guidance along the way?
Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
Without the light, how am I supposed to see? Without God’s voice to guide me, how can I get anywhere?
I’m missing something and it’s something important. Unfortunately this isn’t one of those blog posts that’s full of great information or insight. Instead it’s a blind girl trying to find hope and direction from a voice I don’t fully hear sometimes.
It’s like talking on the phone with someone when you don’t have a good signal. You hear a part of every other word and you might grab the jist of it, but never the whole thing.
A week and a half ago, after the main part of church was over, a guy I never met before came over to me and wanted to pray for me. I said ok and he began to pray and suddenly started prophesying. There’s a lot to it that I won’t go into, but I went home and wrote it all down. I wanted to remember it. I wanted to hear God’s voice in it.
Then, last Sunday I went to a church I love dearly but don’t get to regularly attend because of ministry obligations. My teenage daughter went with me and after the service she asked a lady (a friend of mine) to come and pray for me.
Guess what happened? She began to pray and then started prophesying almost everything that the Lord had given me the previous week from someone else at a different church service with a different congregation.
You think God was trying to tell me something? It’s like these two people had read my deepest thoughts, and were speaking into them in ways only the Lord could do. There was so much love. No judgement. No condemnation. Just love.
Then there’s this whole business of the two blogs in a row talking about the same thing. Same verses, same message, same feelings. I feel pretty dense right now. But you know what? I’m not going to beat myself up over it. That’s not the point.
God never uses shame to get His point across. He’s a good father. He’s so patient. His love is so fierce and true and righteous. My God is not a God of shame. So, I’m not going to even say I need to listen better. I’m not going to say I suck at hearing God’s voice. Nope. I’m not going to roll that way.
Instead, I’m going to listen.
8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.
He’s teaching me tenderly so that I may learn and then teach others. There’s something in that I don’t want to miss. In fact, I refuse to miss it. I will accept a little bit of gentle correction, a bit of embarrassment, and receive the truth. I’m going to admit I’m not hearing it all and ask for more wisdom, more humility, and more correction.
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. 6 But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind.
Lord, I want to hear Your voice. I want to trust all that You have given me and nothing else. Sift through the static for me, God, so I can hear only You. There’s something you want me to learn. There’s always something. And I don’t want to miss any of it. Teach me. Correct me. Discipline me.
12 Blessed is the man whom you discipline, O Lord,
and whom you teach out of your law,
13 to give him rest from days of trouble,
until a pit is dug for the wicked.
14 For the Lord will not forsake his people;
he will not abandon his heritage;
15 for justice will return to the righteous,
and all the upright in heart will follow it.
Jesus has become my righteousness. He has made me whole and pure in the eyes of God, my Father. I want to be taught. I want to learn. I want to overflow with the wisdom and knowledge the Lord asks me to steward, whether the knowledge is for me alone or for me to share. I want what He wants. His way is right. My way is broken.
16 Who rises up for me against the wicked?
Who stands up for me against evildoers?
17 If the Lord had not been my help,
my soul would soon have lived in the land of silence.
18 When I thought, “My foot slips,”
your steadfast love, O Lord, held me up.
19When the cares of my heart are many,
your consolations cheer my soul.
Only in God is there victory. Only in God is there rescue. Only in God is there deliverance. Only in God. Only in God. Only in God.
Let me be in unity with You, Lord, as the Father and Son are in unity. Let us all be in unity with You, Jesus.
Precious Lord Jesus, You say it all. I believe You. I trust You. I want what You want and to be in You as You are in the Father. And I know that even this is the longing of Your Spirit within me. The Spirit that cries, “Abba, Father!” I’m crying out to You, Lord. I’m crying out to You alone.
Jesus prayed, 20 “I do not ask for these only, but also for those who will believe in me through their word, 21 that they may all be one, just as you, Father, are in me, and I in you, that they also may be in us, so that the world may believe that you have sent me. 22 The glory that you have given me I have given to them, that they may be one even as we are one, 23 I in them and you in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that you sent me and loved them even as you loved me. 24 Father, I desire that they also, whom you have given me, may be with me where I am, to see my glory that you have given me because you loved me before the foundation of the world. 25 O righteous Father, even though the world does not know you, I know you, and these know that you have sent me. 26 I made known to them your name, and I will continue to make it known, that the love with which you have loved me may be in them, and I in them.”