18 And the angel of the Lord said to him, “Why do you ask my name, seeing it is wonderful?” 19 So Manoah took the young goat with the grain offering, and offered it on the rock to the Lord, to the one who works wonders, and Manoah and his wife were watching. 20 And when the flame went up toward heaven from the altar, the angel of the Lord went up in the flame of the altar. Now Manoah and his wife were watching, and they fell on their faces to the ground.
Beloved Lord, I have known Your name for a long time. Your name is Jesus. You are wonderful, counselor, mighty God! So, why do I question it all the time? You have worked so many wonders in my life. So many times I have felt and seen and experienced Your power. Over and over You give me more than I could have asked or imagined. So why do I question You? Why do I behave like I don’t know Your name? You are Hashem. You are “the Name”. And I behave like You are nothing more than a crutch to call upon to make myself feel better. But that is not who You are.
I always know all the words to say. I know how to pronounce Your truth. Your Spirit lives in me! But inside my heart, my reason battles my spirit. I fight the truth the burns inside of me. How can I know a thing and yet constantly question it? How can I experience Your divine Power over and over and over and still question it? Lord, help me!
You are a miracle working God. You work wonders in my life and the lives of all people. Your name is wonderful. And I’m sorry for all the times I have questioned and doubted and fallen short of trusting in the truth You’ve seen fit to show me a million times or more. Let me walk in the confidence of all the wonders You have done for me. Keep me from the temptation of falling back into the old habit of doubt that I stumble into at every turn. Build my faith. You have authored it. You can build it up, Jesus. Build my faith. Renew a right spirit within me, O God!