The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!” 6 And the Lord said, “If you had faith like a grain of mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you.
Jesus, I’ve always looked at these words You spoke to your disciples and felt ashamed of my faith. I’d feel this great sadness that my faith wasn’t even as a big as a tiny mustard seed because I couldn’t move a tree or a mountain into the sea. Sure, I’d look at things that happened, things that my prayers and my faith had effect on, and think to myself, “I’m getting there, I guess.” But I always felt so much pity for myself. I’d feel ashamed that my faith was still so small.
And then You touched my heart and I saw this verse in a completely new way. (I love that You never stop teaching, Lord, even when I’m quick to decide I already know something!) I asked you to help me understand why my faith was so small. I asked You to help me understand why the disciples’ faith was so small. And You answered!
A mustard seed of faith is tiny. But, Lord, You provide the increase! You are the one who makes the seed grow! My job is just to have the tiniest amount of faith and then watch You go to work. You will make my faith grow. You will do the miracle! You will increase my tiniest bit of faith and multiply it. That’s what you do! You did it with fish and bread. You did it with oil. You did it with people. You did it all the time! And You’re still doing it! You provide the increase. And so my faith will grow by Your power, no matter how tiny the start.
So, I confess Lord, that I’ve twisted that beautiful teaching into shaming myself. I confess that in some way I was looking to myself to be the miracle maker. But only You have the power to move mountains into the sea. Only You!
I will try to trust in Your power, God, and stop looking within myself for anything other than Your Spirit, Your Glory, and Your Power. Then that tiny little bit of faith I started with can grow and grow. And by Your power I can do whatever You ask of me without fear!