Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. 39 And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching.40 But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” 41 But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, 42 but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”
Lord, You don’t look at me the way I look at myself. You see the labels I put on myself as a distraction to me that keeps me from sitting at Your feet and worshipping You. It’s humbling to be reminded of how often I get distracted and side tracked by my own opinion of myself, or even worse, the opinion that others have about me. I get caught up in what I think I’m supposed to do. I worry about obedience to what You want from me and don’t stop to listen to what You are saying.
Lord, help me to listen. Help me to stop putting pressure on myself to do what people expect of me. Instead, let me fall at Your feet and worship You. Teach me to lay aside the world and the constraints of my own sinful pride and a misplaced desire to serve You in a way that I have decided I am supposed to. I just want to hear your words teaching and guiding me.
I want to wash Your feet with my tears, Jesus.
Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right spirit within me.
Holy Spirit, move in me. Humble my arrogant heart. Temper my human longings and create in me a clean heart. Guide me in the ways of Your thinking and desires for me. Drown out the sounds of my human will and the demands that the world has placed on me. I long to be in Your right mind and not my own. I long to be true to Your definition of who I am and what I am to do. I long to worship You with humility.
39 And the Lord said to him, “Now you Pharisees cleanse the outside of the cup and of the dish, but inside you are full of greed and wickedness. 40 You fools! Did not he who made the outside make the inside also? 41 But give as alms those things that are within, and behold, everything is clean for you.
I don’t want to be like the Pharisees who puffed themselves up on the outside with their dependence on praise and obedience to the Law. I don’t want to be honored by men or even know what they think of me. I don’t want to care, dear Jesus! I don’t want to care! Let me be a fool or a loud mouth. Let me be brazen or unrefined. Let me be so aware that there is nothing good in me, that I all I can see is Your grace lifting me up! Let me choose the better portion in You, my Love!
Sweet Holy Spirit, let me hear Your whispers.
I will submit to Your love for me, my Lord Jesus. Only in You am I free. And no other love or praise can compare.