I am so weak, God. My life is in a constant state of turmoil. My babies are beaten against the rocks. My heart breaks. My world is shaken. And yet the audacity of your love is to pour out strength, pour out peace, and pour out love. It makes no sense in human standards. It makes no sense to me. I can’t even begin to explain the logic behind it. I’ve read it and quoted it in your Word a thousand times. I’ve bragged on your power! I’ve bragged on my weakness. But you still keep showing me more and more and more. The weaker I get, the harder things get, the deeper the struggles I must endure, the stronger my peace, my joy, and my love because of you.
For when I am weak, then I am strong
“But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
Certainly if I tried to explain it, I would fail. People would laugh and call me a fool if they didn’t see it with their own eyes. If they hadn’t watched it all play out in front of them, they would never have understood it. hey would think I am strong. They would think I was great. Because they can’t see my heart and my struggle and my peace, except by the work of my hands that you have blessed. Your light shines through the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it. That describes my experience. That embodies my joy.
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.
Your light shines. Your peace rules. Your power abounds in my weakness.
So, here I am boasting in weakness, because: WOW! Your power really is made perfect in weakness. I have seen it first hand. And I have felt the joy and peace that have come from your Spirit. It makes no sense, but it has happened. Why would I ever want to be anything else but weak? The power of God is beyond joy and love and peace. It is the perfect testimony of God’s Spirit within me. It has built my faith in ways I could never have dreamed of. It has created deeper bonds of love and insight and connection between us, God! I want more! Let the world see my weakness, Jesus. Let the world see how mighty you are to save!